Depressed

I'm still 202 lbs and my depression has to do with my mom's health.

Scared

I'm so scared right now. Fuck. My mom's doctor left a message on my voice mail saying her MRI is abnormal . I'm really scared. Really want to stuff my body full of food to suppress these feelings. Shit. I'm scared. Gotta call him tomorrow morning.

Atkins cheesecake

I am so dying for sweets. I found this easy cheesecake recipe that was OK during induction part of diet. Awesome. Went to buy the few ingredients required. Came home ready to feast. Wtf... I need to buy some appliance thingie to whip the cream??! OK.. Off to eat hard freaking boiled eggs..

The scale

I decided to only weigh myself once a week. I am afraid of the scale. I will be meeting with it on Monday. I'm hoping to have lost 6 lbs.

Nothing bad passed my lips

OK, I am still doing Atkins and walking,  but these nights are killing me!  This is the time I loved to binge eat. I ain't gonna lie ; I miss junk food!!!

Sugar withdrawal

I have had a huge migraine since I quit sugar!!  Omg this is awful. I didn't feel this bad quitting nicotine!! I am going crazy,  but I didn't cheat and I walked. Yeah me.

Day 2

Well,  I made it through the night without eating. However, due to not eating enough carbs I couldn't sleep and I could ALWAYS sleep. Think I might try some magnesium because I need to function.

First day of diet

OK,  so I started on Atkins diet today. Did not cheat. I am nervous as evening draws near as this is my usual time to feast. I'm kinda like a sugar vampire. I keep thinking what the hell do normal people do at night so they aren't binge eating. Seriously. I did walk for an hour at a pathetically slow pace. Being obese made me slow. Yeah,  my BMI is obese. Damn. I have thought how much easier this diet would be with some nicotine gum....

Tomorrow begins diet

I gained 55 lbs since I quit nicotine. I plan to loose it all by June 26th by doing low carb diet and walking. Because I am so damned fat now, walking will start slooowly. I was disgusted and shocked when I caught a vision of myself in the mirror as I was coming out of the shower. Who the hell is that fat person in my bathroom ?! Oh... me. Well, no more fatness.  I beat nicotine and I can beat this food addiction. I am going to use this blog as moral support and progress tracking. Go #teamMe